Frustrations of a Jedi or The Fragrance (Complete)
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Star Wars (All) › General
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
6
Views:
1,675
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Section 5
Qui-Gon
After Obi-Wan left, I did not move at all. On that night, I had told Obi-Wan things that I had not told anyone, not even to my closest acquaintances. I had spent years hiding away what Xanatos had done to me and I had blurted it all out in one night. I could not tell anyone as I am the great and serene Qui-Gon and I could not let my insecurities out.
I had hurt him badly and that was unforgivable. I had shunned him and broken my trust in him and that had broken his heart.
I have done the same that Xanatos did to me.
Where did that thought come from? I had no idea but it screamed loudly in my mind. Had I really become as cold-hearted as him? Had I, a Jedi famous for rebellion become so afraid of love? It was not right. It was not like me to be afraid of anything. I always though love as being a natural and pure process.
Was I afraid that Obi-Wan would betray me again? Did I think so little of him? After much thought, I realised that Obi-Wan was nowhere like Xanatos. Obi-Wan were beautiful and he had a pure heart and was dedicated to the Force. Xanatos was reckless and as time went on, he came less trustworthy. I could trust Obi-Wan. I knew I could.
Oh Gods above, what have I done?
As I got up from the bed, I realised what I must tell him. I just hope he can find it in his heart to forgive me.
After Obi-Wan left, I did not move at all. On that night, I had told Obi-Wan things that I had not told anyone, not even to my closest acquaintances. I had spent years hiding away what Xanatos had done to me and I had blurted it all out in one night. I could not tell anyone as I am the great and serene Qui-Gon and I could not let my insecurities out.
I had hurt him badly and that was unforgivable. I had shunned him and broken my trust in him and that had broken his heart.
I have done the same that Xanatos did to me.
Where did that thought come from? I had no idea but it screamed loudly in my mind. Had I really become as cold-hearted as him? Had I, a Jedi famous for rebellion become so afraid of love? It was not right. It was not like me to be afraid of anything. I always though love as being a natural and pure process.
Was I afraid that Obi-Wan would betray me again? Did I think so little of him? After much thought, I realised that Obi-Wan was nowhere like Xanatos. Obi-Wan were beautiful and he had a pure heart and was dedicated to the Force. Xanatos was reckless and as time went on, he came less trustworthy. I could trust Obi-Wan. I knew I could.
Oh Gods above, what have I done?
As I got up from the bed, I realised what I must tell him. I just hope he can find it in his heart to forgive me.