secret thoughts

Chap. 5 (He belongs to me)

Cleitus watched as Alexander slammed Cassander into the wall the man had finally pushed Alexander too far. None of the generals were happy about Alexander’s marriage to the barbarian Roxane. Nobody except Cleitus he couldn’t have been happier, Alexander’s marriage was the final piece he need to get Hephaistion. All his hard work had paid off. After the meeting with the generals we celebrated the wedding. I watched as Hephaistion walked around almost in a daze. He was hurting I could tell. This wedding was tearing him apart. Alexander sat next to his barbarian wife shouting about how he was going to educate the Persians in the Greek way, and how the Persian children would become part of his army. To say the generals were upset would be an understatement.

Cleitus had dosed off to sleep when the door to his room opened. Grabbing his dagger he turned over slightly and froze. Hephaistion was standing in the door way looking at Cleitus nervously. “Hephaistion what’s wrong?” Cleitus said sitting up.

Hephaistion looked at Cleitus. “I don’t think I can be alone tonight.” With out any thought Cleitus lifted up his covers. Taking off his boots and armor Hephaistion crawled into bed with Cleitus. A few seconds after laying down Hephaistion began to cry. Cleitus wrapped his arms around Hephaistion and pulled him close.

“He doesn’t deserve you,” Cleitus whispered resting his chin on top of Hephaistion head. Within minutes Hephaistion was asleep wrapped securely in Cleitus’s arms. Cleitus could hardly believe he had Hephaistion pressed up against his body. The other man was so warm, and smelled so good. It was hard not to take him right then and there. But he wouldn’t Hephaistion had been hurt enough for today. And if it was up to Cleitus he would never be hurt again.

Hephaistion woke early the next morning wrapped in Cleitus’s arms. He took a minute to stare at the man who had been hitting on him for the past few months. Cleitus was handsome, but could he really give Hephaistion what he needed. “How are you feeling?” Cleitus said opening his eyes.

“I’m fine now thank you. I did not know you were awake.”

“I was watching you sleep, until I dosed off again.” Cleitus said stretching. Before Hephaistion can comment a servant enters carrying a tray of food, he looks from Cleitus to Hephaistion then turns bright red.

“I sorry my lord I did not know you had company.”

“It’s alright leave the food and go.”

“Yes my lord,” he says dropping the tray and practically running out of the room. Hephaistion gets out of bed looking a little uncomfortable.

“I’m sorry about last night I shouldn’t have come here.”

“It’s okay. If you ever need me I’m here.”

“Yeah, thanks….” Hephaistion turns to leave but Cleitus grabs his arm.

“You deserve better, than what you’re getting,” Cleitus whispers in his ear then kisses him. Just as he’s about to pull back

Cassander enters. “Oh…..excuse me didn’t mean to interrupt. I’ll just come back later.”

“No,” said Hephaistion stepping back. “We’re done here. By Cleitus.”

I let Cleitus kiss me, again. What am I thinking I promised Alexander it’d only be him? What am I thinking, or not thinking. When ever Cleitus comes near me my brain goes out the window. It’s not fair. Hephaistion was so in thought he didn’t see Alexander sitting on his bed when he walked in the room.

“Where were you?”

“By the gods,” Hephaistion said jumping a little. “You startled me Alexander. What are you doing here?” He asked not liking the way Alexander was staring at him.

“I came here last night looking for you. I wanted to “talk”.”

“I didn’t go to bed until late,” Hephaistion said walking toward his bathing chamber. Trying to get away from that piercing gaze. And the rage he could feel underneath it.

“I waited all night. The slaves say you didn’t sleep here last night," Alexander states, standing up and moving toward Hephaistion.

“Alexander……..” Hephaistion never gets to finish as Alexander backhands him with enough force to send him crashing to the ground.

“You were with him last night weren’t you,” Alexander yells grabbing Hephaistion’s arm and halling him up.

“It doesn’t matter who I was with,” Hephaistion says holding back tears and trying to pull his arm away. “I can do as I please I don’t need your permission.”

“Your sleeping with him aren’t you," Alexander growls out. His rage is barely in check. Hephaistion was his when had he forgotten that.

“No I’m not. But if I was it would be none of your business. You have your wife and your Persian tramp…….”

“Watch it Hephaistion,” Alexander growled out releasing his arm, and stepping back. “Don’t you love me anymore,” Alexander says looking at Hephaistion with tears in his eyes. “All I ever hear is Cleitus. What can he give you that I can not? What does he have that I don’t even my father favored him.”

“Oh Alexander I’m so sorry,” Hephaistion says hugging him. “Please forgive me.”

“You haven’t broken your promise have you?”

“Of course not, although Cleitus did kiss me.” Alexander steps back fire burning in his black eyes. “He did what?”

“Alexander…”

“I’ll kill him,” he yells storming out of Hephaistion’s room.

Cleitus had just stepped out the bath when he was met by a fist to his jaw. He had little time to react before a boot connected to his stomach. “Stop,” he heard someone yell. Acting on instinct Cleitus stroke out with his foot catching his attacker in the midsection. Not wasting time Cleitus stroke out with a fist of his own catching his attacker off guard. Within minutes the two men were wrestling on the ground. “Stop…. Alexander stop please,” Hephaistion called out trying to drag Alexander off Cleitus. “Help,” Hephaistion yelled. Hoping to get the attention of a near by general or guard. Luckily Cassander had been coming to check on Cleitus. Seeing the scene Cassander grabbed Alexander knowing that Cleitus would stop fighting once he wasn’t being attacked.

Alexander pushes Cassander away from him then whorls around to face Cleitus. “I warned you to stay away from him.”

“He came to me, so you must be doing something wrong.”

“I’m warning you Cleitus stay away from him. He belongs to me, if I even smell your scent upon him I will have you executed for treason.” Alexander yells grabbing Hephaistion by the arm and storming out of the roomdragging his lover behind him.

“I don’t think you should try and win Hephaistion anymore. Alexander’s temper is famous.”

“Alexander doesn’t deserve Hephaistion. He treats him as a possession not a person, you saw it how he practically dragged him out of hear,” Cleitus says wiping blood from his lip.

“Yes but Cleitus….”

“No, I won’t let Alexander win. Hephaistion deserves the world and I’m going to make sure he gets it.”