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Struggle For Control	By : PiratesWench Category: S through Z > Secret Window Views: 3851 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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To celebrate, Mort took Alex out for dinner. After getting Julia situated in her high
chair, the couple continued to gush over their future child.

�I can�t believe I forgot to ask how far along you
are,� Mort said, feeling b abo about it.

�Nothing to worry over. I�m about six or seven weeks into it.� Alex smiled at him. �I
think�Well, I�m pretty sure that it was the morning after I�the morning I
didn�t go to work.�

�Some reunion,� he chuckled.

Tell her now.

Now? Why
now? Now�s happy...

Trust me.

Mort found himself feeling the need to get
everything out in the open. �Alex, I
don�t want to spoil tonight, but I need to tell you what happened at Dr.
Harris� office today.�

�Are you all right?� Alex asked, her voice flooded
with concern.

The faster, the better. �My medication�s been changed and Dr. Harris
wants to, well, he wants us both to attend my therapy sessions.� Alex looked puzzled. �He says I have a few symptoms of
schizophrenia, but he doesn�t think I necessarily have it�and now you�re
carrying�if you don�t want to have it and��

�What?� Alex
sounded appalled.

�Well, I just mean that�I�d understand if you want
me out of your life now and��
Discreetly, Alex reached across the table and slapped Mort � not
harshly, but enough to bring him back to reality. He looked stunned and grateful all at once.
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�Are you back?� Alex asked. �For a minute, there was some crazy person
in your body.�

�Let�s not phrase thinike ike that, O.K.?�

She took Mort�s hand. �I have every intention of bringing your child into this world,
Morton Rainey. I love you. Whatever Dr. Harris thinks needs to be
done��

�How can you be so fine with this?�

Alex�s face grew noticeably sad. �You asked me that before, remember?� Mort nodded silently. �I don�t know what kind of a relationship
you had with Amy, but�I�m not her. I�m
not going to give up on you � especially not now.� She sighed.spanspan>�I don�t want
to sound like some Lifetime movie or anything, but I mean it. I love you and I know that we can work
through whatever�s wrong together.�

Keeping his voice low, Mort said, �I�m scared of
something happening to one of us.�

�What do you mean?�

�I don�t want either of us to get hurt.�

�Hurt?� Alex
looked confused. �Emotionally?

�Emotionally, physically�I - I don�t know.� Mort suddenly looked and felt helpless.

�Mort?�

�I�ve seen him, Alex,� he blurted. �I�ve seen John Shooter as clearly as I see
you right now. He says things�threats. At first it only happened when things were
falling apart�when I was depressed, but things were fine when I missed that
damn pill and��

�You saw him then?�
Mort nodded. �You see
him?�

Suddenly, part of Mort�s mind felt blocked. There was something else he wanted to tell
her. Shooter. Shooter had trapped Mort inside of his own body and �taken� Alex
� but something was preventing the memory from coming to Mort�s conscious mind
� he couldn�t tell her. He couldn�t
even remind himself of it.

You�ll lose her. Mort�s voice of reason? Was that too so desperate not to be alone
that it was blocking things from him?

�Mort?� Alex said, pulling him back to her.

�I�m sorry,� he said softly. �Are you ready to run now?�

Alex put her hand on her stomach. �No.�
She locked her eyes with his. �I
won�t tell you that I�m not worried about you, but you haven�t given me a solid
reason to�� Her voice trailed off. �I refuse to push you away again. What good would that do either of us? I mean, especially now. I�I�m not perfect by any means, so what
would give me the right�� She
struggled, unable to find the right words.
With a deep sigh, she gave up and switched the subject slightly. �I�ll go to therapy with you. I�ll do whatever I can to help you.�

�What if��

Alex shook her head, dismissing his �what if� before
he could even ask it. �Have you ever,
um, seen things when you were alone with Julia?�

�No.�

�With me?�

�Well, no��

�Then I�m not worried. I mean, I�m worried about you, of course but�Ugh, I�m just
digging a deeper hole for myself to talk my way out of. I promise you that if my outlook on any of
this changes, if I do get scared, I�ll tell you. I love you, Mort. I won�t
run away from you again.�

Mort felt himself fight to keep from breaking
down. He lost. Tears flowed freely from his mocha eyes;
Alex lovingly wiped them away. Amy
would never have been so understanding, so supportive�so brave. Brave?
Well, Mort was seeing someone who didn�t exist and she refused to
turn away from him, even after he voiced his fear about something bad
happening. He couldn�t help but think
what his life would have been like had he met Alex first. He could have avoided all of
this. He could have, possibly,
been free of so many issues. Life
didn�t happen that way though, and he was grateful for having her now when he
needed someone the most.

Mort�s hand reached across the table in search of
Alex�s. As he gently squeezed it, the
only words he could get out were, �Thank you.�
The love between them was understood wordlessly.
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