In Perfect Love and perfect trust | By : jennaraven Category: Star Wars (All) > AU - Alternate Universe Views: 6107 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0 |
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Trust chapter 19 She couldn't understand at first why her body refused to allow her to leave her cabin. Until she remembered his tampering. He must have put some sort of compulsion on her to keep her in here. She got angry and chanted a release spell to negate the compulsion. She felt it drop away and opened her cabin door. She headed for the launch bay. Slipping into access tubes and crawling across shafts. She didn't want to have to hurt some well-meaning clone that just didn't know what was happening. She reached the fighter quarters and knocked out one of the pilots who were about to leave on patrol. She slid into a flight suit and walked out with the rest of the pilots. She climbed into the mans fighter and started it up. Waited for her launch sequence. The fighters in front of her launched and she immediately followed him. She felt like she was going to be caught at any time. She stuck with the group until they disappeared in an asteroid belt. Then she went behind one fired up her jump drive and jumped to hyperspace. Before the other fighters even realized what she was doing. On the bridge "Sir one of our fighters just jumped into hyperspace" said the clone. "Was it a malfunction?" asked Anakin. Even though he had a sinking feeling that it was not. He buzzed Isis's cabin and received no answer "sir what should we do?" asked the clone, "its Isis" said Anakin "should we pursue her?' asked the clone "what's her heading?" asked Anakin "Coruscant?" said the clone. "No we are heading that way anyway" he said he dismissed himself from the bridge and checked her quarters. It wasn't until he was about to leave that he noticed her screen was on. He reviewed what she had been reading. Thinking that maybe she had found some lead on Dooku. His heart went to his throat and a lump of fear formed in his stomach. He raced back to the bridge. They had to get to Coruscant before her. She already had enough of a head start. To bad they were already too late. Isis was powering down her fighter. Aayla was waiting for her at the port "where's your ship?" she asked. When Isis drew near. "Oh its fine Anakin wanted to fly it in" she said Covering for him for some reason. "There is another reason you have returned early," said Aayla. Petra looked at her funny from her position at Aayla's side. "Yes but I'm unsure now about how to proceed" said Isis "why not ask for guidance?" said Aayla "Unfortunately the person I would usually ask for advice from is gone" said Isis. "Obi wan?" said Aayla. Isis nodded and Petra stifled a sob and hugged her friend. "Why do you not ask your master?" asked Aayla Isis sighed, "Because it concerns him" said Isis "if it concerns him he should have a say in it" said Aayla. "Actually I have a question before I even discuss it with anyone, I need to know something" said Isis "what is it you need to know?" asked Aayla. "I need to know what will happen to him if I report certain inappropriate behavior" said Isis Petra looked at Isis funny but remained silent "that would depend on the inappropriate behavior" said Aayla looking at Isis straight in the face. "What is it that you wish to say, Isis, what happened?" said Aayla "What if that action were say, " she sighed unable to spit it out. "Rape" she finished at last. Aayla stopped walking and looked at Isis closely. "That is a very serious charge," said Aayla. "I know and I don't want to make it lightly," said Isis "you are concerned for his well being?" said Aayla in shock. "Why if he did this he's a monster," Petra piped in. Aayla glared at her. "Not everything is so black and white my apprentice," said Aayla. Petra quieted but was still silently seething. "Your not sure what to do with this information?" said Aayla Isis looked over at her."I don't want to ruin his life Aayla," she said Aayla sighed and rubbed her head. "You still care for him, and think you can save him?" said Aayla "yeah I guess I do," said Isis. Aayla looked at her I sympathy she had felt the same way about her own master once. "Whatever you do I'll stand beside you on it" said Aayla. They resumed walking heading for the temple. Twenty minutes later Anakin's ship jumped into orbit and requested a landing vector. The pilot set it down a few minutes later and Anakin left one of the clone officers in charge as he raced to intercept Isis. He caught up to her as they waited for a public transport. He pushed his way towards her. "Isis wait please I must talk to you" he said grabbing her arm before she could get into a transport. The passenger behind her climbed in instead and the transport took off. Isis glared at him. He maneuvered her out of the line. When some one protested, he stated Jedi business. "Anakin let go," she hissed as he half dragged her away from the crowd. Aayla and Petra followed them. "Would you mind this is private" he sated. "They already know," she said glaring at him. He looked concerned for a second. Aayla crossed her arms on her chest. Petra mimicked her master's pose. "Isis please I can explain," he said "oh really this outta be good" she responded. "If you go through with this I'll lose everything please Isis," he said "why, just tell me why" Isis said, "I don't know why" he whispered. Isis stood there for a moment looking at him. No matter how angry she was with him part of her still cared for him. Isis swore to herself and turned away from him for a second. She turned back to him with a look in her eyes. "This is what's going to happen" she said "you said on board the transport I was ready for my trials, you will recommend me for them, today" she said "yes I did say that" he said "in return I will keep this information between us" she said "and?" he said "and you will never take a female padawan again is that understood?" she said he nodded. "Make no mistake here I'm not letting this go, I will be watching you" said Isis. "Isis I" he started to say, "After I return from my trials I never want to see you again" said Isis. He bowed his head in dejection "I understand" he whispered. "Skywalker" said Aayla finally speaking "yes Aayla" he said " I will abide by her decision here but if I feel that you are in any way returning to these habits I will inform the council" said Aayla "yes I understand, you'll do what you have to." He said "Isis I'm so " he started to say, "do not say it unless you really mean it" she interrupted him. "I do mean it, and I'm sorry please Isis at least accept my apology" he pleaded softly. "Not now perhaps later but I'm too angry and hurt right now to accept it" she answered. He looked at his feet. "Now if you'll excuse me I have a briefing to deliver to the council" she said and turned her back on him and walked away. Aayla followed her. Petra looked one last time at Anakin standing there. Turned towards her friend s and put her nose up and walked away. Anakin watched them reenter the transport line and get into one. He watched them go. Partially relieved that she wouldn't tell on him but he felt as though he deserved for her to. He lost something here today and he knew it. Something he would never be able to get back. He closed his eyes, it hurt unexpectantly, and it hurt. It felt almost as bad as when he lost his mother. He headed for the transport line. He ignored the glances of the other people waiting and climbed into a transport alone. Alone for the first time. No obi wan, no padme and no Isis. He was truly and completely alone and it sucked, as Isis would have put it. The idea of her ways rubbing off on him brought no sense of comfort, just a sense of loss. Though they still were linked he felt her put up walls between them. That made the sense of loss complete and he stifled the urge to cry. Isis rode silently with Aayla and Petra. When Petra finally became unnerved by the silence she asked "where's Kira and Obi wan?" Isis stifled a gasp followed by a sob. "Petra Kira's gone and so is Obi Wan," she said softly. Petra stared at her in disbelief before breaking into sobs. Isis moved towards her and hugged her "its ok, shush its ok" said Isis. The transport left them at the temple steps. They stayed outside for a few minutes trying to calm Petra. "I'm sorry I said it like that please Petra stop crying" said Isis. "Come Petra they are with the force now, its all right" said Aayla. Petra almost cried harder. Isis guided her up the steps and into the temple. Petra regained some control long enough for Aayla to lead her away to their quarters. Isis headed for the council chambers and waited until they called her in. she gave her report and was dismissed. She returned to her quarters and packed up her stuff. If she had to she would bunk in Kira's room tonight. Anakin entered the temple silently and reported to the council chambers. His report was solemn as he recounted their losses. Then he recommended Isis for her trials. He had intended to do so before everything had happened. Obi wan had even agreed with him on her readiness. The council gave their consolations on Obi wans loss and agreed to set a date for her trial. He was relieved when they finally dismissed him. He returned to his quarters. When he walked in the door Isis was on a chair removing pictures from the wall. "You gave that to me for my birthday remember" he said wryly. She froze mid movement and left the picture there. "Isis what are you doing?" he asked "what does it look like I'm doing?" she asked. She put another candleholder in the box next to her. He never noticed before just how much stuff decorated his walls. Or how much of it was put there by Isis. "Where are you going?" he asked "I'm going to stay in Kira's old room" said Isis "it could be months before they give you your trials" he said "I know, I'll be fine" she said. She climbed on the chair again to reach another wall hanging. He stepped closer grabbed what she was reaching for and held it out to her. "Don't do this, talk to me Isis please" he said. She took the picture out of his hands and put it in the box. Then she moved towards the shelves. Anakin spotted something in the box. It was a holophoto of them. Her, obi and him, they were laughing in the photo. He held it and gazed at the image sadly. She was erasing him from her life and it hurt. She took the photo out of his hand and shoved it back in the box. Then she went back to the shelves. He stepped between her and the box. "Isis don't cut me out of your life" he said she turned and glared at him. He could feel her anger shimmer in the force. "Why not?" she responded, "it's not fair" said Anakin. "Fair, you want fair, life isn't fair Anakin" she said "if it were that would mean that everything bad that happens to you happens because you deserved it for some reason, do you really want fair" she said. The last part came out in a sob. She reached for the box around him. He blocked her path and pulled her into his arms. "Isis please forgive me I'm so sorry, I don't want to lose you like this please!" he pleaded. He was holding her in a bear hug and she couldn't pull free. "Anakin please do not make this harder than it is," she whispered. He kissed her forehead unwilling to let her go least she slip away forever. "Anakin" she mumbled into his chest 'I can't breathe" she said. He relaxed his hold somewhat but didn't let go. "Please Isis don't hate me, be angry with me all you want but don't hate me" he said. She glared at him and tried to pull out of his arms. He held fast. "Let go "She hissed when the metal fingers dung into her skin. "Ow your hurting me" she said "I'm sorry, and I'm sorry I hurt you before" he said. "No your not, stop lying to me" she accused "I'm not lying, I'm sorry I hurt you, I'm sorry I destroyed your trust and I'm sorry I treated you that way I was wrong and I know it" he said "but your not sorry for what you did" she said "no Isis I'm not and I'd do it again, but id do so with your consent next time" he said "what about Padme don't you think cheating on her will hurt her?" he answered "Yes that's why I'm asking you not to say anything to her, please Isis she's my wife" he said "and you thought I'd be what? Your mistress?" she returned. "I never thought about it that way" he said "you never thought about it that way, try you never thought about it at all" she returned. "Your right I didn't or I never would have taken advantage of you," he said, "glad to see you can admit that much," she said. "Isis please I know I was wrong" he said, "no you don't know, I was hurting and vulnerable and you used me to appease some twisted fantasy" she practically yelled and tried to hit him. He held her arms down. 'I know and I'm sorry I can't undo it, but you have my word I will never do that again" he said softly. "Save your sweet nothings for your wife or better yet sleep over there tonight" she said pulling her wrist out of his hand. "If you'll agree to stay, I'll do so gladly," he said. He released her other hand and she rubbed her wrist. "Please Isis I don't want to lose you too" he said softly. She glared hot hate at him. "I lost him too Isis" he said. "Then why aren't you grieving for him?" she retorted. "I am believe me I am, I just guess it hasn't fully hit me yet," he said. "More like you never really cared," she yelled back. "I cared he was like a father to me" he yelled back. "Well then I guess you couldn't wait to get out of the house then" she said "what's that supposed to mean?" he said "You don't know?" she said "no I don't why don't you explain it" he said "Why do you think he was so hard on you?" he snorted "cause he wanted to hold me back and he hated me" he said "No Anakin it was because he cared about you, he wanted you to be strong," she said, "then why did he always question how I did things?" he said "because he was afraid he'd loose you," she answered. "Really he told you that?" he asked "yes and a whole lot of other things" she said "like what?" he asked "for one thing he knew about Padme he just wanted you to be happy and her love did that and it made you strong enough to face the darkness without him" she said "I don't want to face this alone" he said forlornly "please stay" he whispered holding on to her hands. "Oh Obi I'm so sorry" he whispered burying his face in his hands. She put her arms around him and held him as the tears finally fell. He cried himself to sleep in her lap and she couldn't move him to get up so she just slept sitting up. She leaned against the chair and rested her head on the box. While Anakin sniffled softly in her lap. He looked like a lost child when he slept. She felt sorry for him with all the chosen one prophecy nonsense. I guess she could leave tomorrow. Some one was knocking at the door. "Hold on" she mumbled Anakin was still on her lap."Anakin wake up" she hissed and pushed him. His eyes flew open and he jumped up. Then he instantly regretted getting up so fast. Isis climbed to her feet more slowly and answered the door. It was Aayla, Petra and Chani. Followed more slowly by Kit Fisto. "You slept here last night?" said Petra in shock. Aayla looked at her funny. "It is her cabin why would she not sleep here?" said Kit. Chani noticed that Isis seemed reluctant to answer so she piped in. "we were planning a trip to new solstice, to release something called a memory moth as a sort of memorial to Kira and Obi wan do you want to go?" asked Chani "Yeah sure" said Isis Petra and Chani looked at Anakin as if they wanted to ask him to come but didn't know how Isis would react. Isis solved it for them "do you want to join us Anakin?" she asked "sure if you want me to" he said back. He wasn't sure where he stood with her anymore. She seemed willing to work it out, or at least tolerate his company.
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