The Path of Dreams

~Chapter 15~

Jacen Solo’s Apartment, Coruscant

Ben felt her subtle brush and became instantly alert. He reached out through their bond and, after she reached back, he realized that she was coming toward him. After he glanced at the chrono—it was well after 0100—he got out of bed, wondering why Jys would be out at this hour. Noticing the message indicator was flashing on his comlink and thinking that it may be Jys, he opened it. However it wasn’t her, instead it was from Jacen, informing Ben that he would be leaving the planet that night for a few days.

After tossing the communicator back onto the bedside stand, he padded out of the darkened bedroom. He reached out for Jysella again and found her presence coming off his floor’s turbolift. He commanded the lights to come on to the dimmest setting as he moved through the small living room to the door just as the bell sounded. He opened the door and Jysella instantly went into his waiting arms.

Suddenly, he was flooded with her sadness. “Jys, what’s wrong?” He anxiously asked as she buried her face into his bare chest. The door closed behind her and he held her for several moments until she finally met his gaze. He was concerned by the sight of tears streaming from her beautiful jade eyes. “Jys?”

“Oh, Ben! They’re doing it,” she sobbed.

“Who is doing what?” his voice nearly cracked from the cold fear he suddenly felt.

She stared at him for a few moments as if she was memorizing his face. She then traced the still jagged scars on his forehead and cheek; finally, she whispered, “Our parents—they’re sending me away.”

“What?” There was no hiding the alarm in his voice.

“Ben, your parents informed me tonight, after you dropped me off, that I won’t be coming back here for my knighting. Your dad is coming along with us tomorrow. I’ll be knighted at Ossus. After which, I’m being sent to Krylon with Tahiri Veila to relieve Jaden Korr. I’m to be there until recalled. Tahiri is just to mentor me long enough until I know what I’m supposed to do. But I could be there for years.”

“No, Jys.” He pulled her to him again and he relished the feel of her against his bare chest. “Jacen promised me that he’d prevent anything like this from happening.”

She pulled away, meeting his gaze and hopefully asked, “Is he here? Maybe he can still get the Council to change the assignment before I have to leave Ossus. If enough Masters vote against our parents, then I will be able to stay here or only go on a short term—”

Ben sadly shook his head, quieting her flow of words. Regrettably, he informed, “Jacen isn’t here. He went to check out some lead earlier tonight and may not be back for two to three days.”

She didn’t say a word at first; she simply laid her head back down on his chest and cried. Finally, she whispered, “Ben, I don’t want to leave you.”

“I know, Jys. I don’t want you to leave either. I need you.” He stroked her hair and tried to send her comfort through their bond, but his anger toward their parents began to bubble. Why are they doing this to us? What is so wrong about our love?

She pulled away some and wiped the tears from her eyes as he lead her over to the couch. They sat down and Ben pulled her into his arms again.

She looked up at him and her voice was hoarse from her sobbing, “Ben, just hold me. I don’t ever want you to let me go.”

He swallowed and whispered into her rich black hair. “Jysella, I’ll never let you go. I’ll talk to Jacen after he returns. Maybe he still can do something. I know you’ll have to go on missions and now that I command a company I’m not always on Coruscant either. But they didn’t have to station you to a planet so far out. Jys, what are they so afraid of?”

“I wish I knew, Ben. I wish I knew,” she quietly responded in the soothing warmth of his chest.

They clung to each other for a long time, finding comfort in the physical contact and through their bond. After a while, Ben thought Jys had gone to sleep. He wondered if he should lay her down on the couch and let her rest, but he really didn’t want to let her go. He relished the feel of her within his arms, and suddenly wondered what holding her naked body to his would be like. As that thought played out in his mind, sending his desire spiraling, he knew he had to let her go. As he began to move, she looked up at him and softly but shyly said, “Please, Ben, I want to be with you too.”

He swallowed hard as he realized what she was implying. “Jys? I’m not sure that’s a good idea even if it is what we both want.”

She sat up and he shuddered as she tentatively slid her finger tips over his muscular chest. “Ben,” she met his eyes again, “I know what I said the other night, but I don’t really want to wait. I’ve never wanted anything more in my life.”

He cupped her face and looked deeply into the green pools of her eyes. He felt himself drown there. How was he going to resist her? He wanted her so badly that she tortured his dreams. He leaned down and captured her lips in a kiss that was both tender and passionate. She moaned and opened her mouth under his and he deepened the kiss, his tongue slid against hers and they sucked on each other’s lips. He loved the taste of her—sweet as the sweetest wine and she easily intoxicated him. She caressed his naked chest and back, her fingers and nails setting his skin on fire, especially when she brushed over the sensitive points on his chest.

“Jys…” he breathed against her lips as the kiss broke for air. He gazed into her eyes and he wondered how they were to get to the next step. Although he had dreamed more than once about what he would do with her, and he’d seen a few holomovies that more than explained what he needed to do next, he suddenly felt awkward.

She must have sensed his unease while he sensed hers, but she quickly overcame hers. After sliding her hand up his chest to rest on his cheek, she licked her passion swollen lips and whispered, “Ben, I’ve never been with anyone either. And of the act, I only know what I’ve read about in those romance holobooks your mom doesn’t know I read.” She gave a short chuckle and added, “But it can’t be all that hard to figure out. Beings have been doing this since the dawn of time.”

Her attempt at levity caused him to smile as he quickly glanced away for a moment before turning back to her. It was exactly what he needed to break the tension that was building within. “Yeah, I suppose you’re right. I only know what I’ve seen in the holoflicks the guys at GAG left me see without Jacen fining out.” He blushed and then touched her face with the backs of his fingers. Smiling, he said in a suddenly hoarse voice, “But I want it to be perfect for you. I mean,” he blushed as he looked down again, “I know it will hurt for you. At least that’s what I’ve heard, that it’s painful for the girl the first time.” He then intently peered into her eyes.

She blushed as she smiled back at him and responded huskily, “You could never hurt me, Ben. And I know it will be perfect because it’s you.” Then they drew each other into another explosive kiss. Ben pulled her to her feet after the kiss came apart and silently led her into his bedroom.

~

Jysella felt the desire build within her and she could feel Ben’s as well, but she also sensed apprehension—not toward what they were about to do but toward how. She knew she wanted this more than anything, but she didn’t want to disappoint Ben either.

For a long moment they just gazed at each other, after they entered dark bedroom. Ben called the lights to come up on their dimmest setting just as out in the main room. He kissed her neck and slid his lips to her ear and whispered, “I hope you don’t mind the light, Jys, but I want to see you.” She nodded as she looked around the very masculine bedroom, until her eyes fell upon his narrow bed.

She swallowed hard, and Ben whispered, his soft voice braking through her addled mind, “Jys, are you really sure that you want this?”

She quickly turned her attention back to him and smiled, “Yes.” She then moved close to him and slid her hands up his bare chest. Ben’s chest was completely void of any hair, but as her eyes traveled down the toned plains, she noticed a concentration of dark auburn just above the low waistband of his shorts, but that wasn’t all she noticed. Below the drawstring was a sizable bump. A forbidden thrill like none she had ever experienced ran through her. She had felt, and even seen, Ben’s physical attraction to her more than once when they kissed, which usually caused him embarrassment, but she had never seen it so plainly, or even pronounced. He was always covered with layers of clothing, and he would fight the biological response to her. However he wasn’t fighting it now and, as she wantonly stared at him, he grew larger. She slid her hand down over his taunt abdomen, casing him to hiss. Finally, her hand came to gently rest over the half-erect manhood beneath his shorts. She had dreamed about touching him like this for longer than she wanted to admit to. She felt him shudder and quickly brought her eyes back up to his, but she continued her shy exploration, gently stroking the length of him. His eyes fluttered closed, her tentative touch eliciting a sharp moan as his erection hardened.

“I’ve wanted to touch you here for a long time. Do you like when I touch you,” she whispered against his ear.

“Oh…Force…yeah…” he breathed. Grasping her upper arms, he held her away from him so that he could look upon her.

His intense blue eyes, which were nearly black in the low light and with desire, watched her as he reached out to grasp the edge of her tank top. “Jys, I want to see you. I want to touch you.”

Without a spoken word, she let him know through their bond that she was okay, and that she very much wanted him to touch her. As the fabric was slowly lifted away, they never broke eye contact, and Jys never stopped stroking him through the thin fabric of his shorts. She felt his confidence increase, along with his burning desire, and she let him feel hers.

The shirt fell discarded to the floor and Jysella met Ben’s eyes again. She stopped touching him and blushed when she discovered that he was staring at her breasts with a look that could only be called lust in his eyes. Noticing that she caught him, his cheeks turned pink, but it was gone nearly as soon as it stared. Ben was determined to show her that he wasn’t a child.

Nevertheless, the awkwardness suddenly returned, and Jys could feel Ben’s insecurity spike within their bond. She smiled shyly and said, “You can touch me, if you want.”

He swallowed and lifted his hand to softly brush over the womanly mound. When he grasped her nipple between his finger and thumb she moaned loudly at the awakening sensations the tentative caress created in her secret place between her legs. He nearly jerked away, thinking that he had touched her wrongly. She opened her eyes and met his concerned ones.

“I—I don’t want to hurt you,” he hoarsely stammered.

“You aren’t,” she reassured him. “I just wasn’t expecting it to feel like that.”

“Like what?” He let her place his hand upon her smooth flesh again, except now the rosy nipple was pebbled hard.

She gazed at him and whispered, “So different from when I touch myself.”

He looked at his hand on her breast and swallowed. He brought the other hand up to caress the other one. She moaned again as he gently rolled her nipples between his thumb and index fingers as he had before. After a moment, her neck extended back as she enjoyed the foreign sensations, he leaned over and kissed the hollow where her pulse point was. She groaned loudly and Ben smiled against her soft skin. Making his way up to her ear he murmured, “I like touching you.”

Smiling wickedly, she met his eyes and said, “I like it too. And I like touching you. In fact, I want to touch you without the shorts.”

Suddenly the awkwardness between them was replaced by desire and desire by passion as Ben gave her a rakish grin, “I definitely want you to do that.” He then took her into his arms again and kissed her, long and hard. The sensation of his hardness on her bare belly about drove her crazy as their tongues dueled and they sucked on each others’ lips, until the need for air caused them to break apart. Breathless and smiling, she took his hand and stepped over to the bed. However, as she looked down at the mussed standard issue grey coverlet and white sheets, she swallowed. She knew once she lied down upon Ben’s bed there was no turning back. She would be committed to go through with this, not because she didn’t want to upset Ben, but because she had enough understanding of herself to know that she wouldn’t what him to stop.

Do I really want to do this? She thought. Am I doing the right thing? But those thoughts were quickly cast aside when she looked back at the boy before her. No, she scolded herself, he isn’t a boy. He’s a man as much as I am a woman. Yes, we are young, and he’s younger, but we’ve both lived a lot of life—the rest of which I want to spend with him.

She smiled in a way she hoped would be seductive, like an actress in a holodrama as she reached down to pull her shoes off. Straightening, she caught Ben’s gaze and he grinned, but his attention was quickly diverted to watching her push the dark leggings off her rounded hips to pool around her feet for her to step out of.

She watched as he swallowed at the sight of seeing her completely nude for the first time, and then eventually brought his eyes back up to meet hers. ”Oh, Jysella, you truly are an angel,” his husky whisper caused her to shudder, which only served to cause her dusky nipples to harden into sensitive stones.

She smiled and averted her eyes as she blushed at his scrutiny. She suddenly felt very exposed, “Do you really think I’m beautiful, Ben?”

He stepped closer to her and brushed the hair, which fell onto her face when she looked away, from her cheek, running his fingers through the dark silky strands. He smiled lopsidedly and simply whispered, “Yeah, I do.”

As if realizing he was still dressed, Ben moved back again and opened the drawstring of the shorts. Jys tried to lock her gaze to his, but pure innocent curiosity got the best of her sudden shyness and her eyes fell downward—and she let out the breath she didn’t even realize she was holding. He was the most beautiful thing she had ever seen. Ben was tall to the point of being lanky and, considering he wasn’t finished growing, he would most likely tower over his father someday. His long curling red hair, which he long ago let grow out, fell around his ears to almost brush his shoulders. His muscles were toned and well defined despite his age. Jysella’s eyes, though, were drawn to that part that made him male. It jutted out from a mess of dark curls, dark and engorged, and was actually bigger than she had expected. Not that she ever thought he would to be small when it came to this part of him, but to her, at this moment, he looked huge. To Jys he resembled a young virile god, like the kind the ancient statues depicted and that Tionne had always been so embarrassed to talk about when she was at the Academy.

Then she broke the spell by whispering, “You are beautiful too, Ben Skywalker, like an ancient god.” Ben blushed despite his best intentions, and she smiled as she reached out to take his hand again. However, he surprised her by taking her gently by the upper arms and guided her back onto the bed. She lied down and he followed to lie beside her.

He kissed her as his hand found her breasts again. Once the kiss ended, Ben moved down to explore Jysella’s firm breasts with his mouth. He kissed over the mounds, teasing her by not touching the aching nipples. He moved down on the bed some and wove his long muscular legs around hers, while his hard manhood pressed into her leg. She squirmed at the sensations building within her as she had never felt such passion before. He moved to the other breast, licking and nipping at her skin, but he seemed to avoid the most sensitive area. She wasn’t sure if he was intentionally doing so, or if he honestly didn’t realize that she very much wanted him to touch her nipples. Finally, he licked one, she gasped and he looked up to meet her eyes. The mischievousness in his proved that he very much knew what he was doing.

“No,” she breathed and buried her fingers into his think copper locks, “don’t stop. I like that.”

He licked the nipple again and then said, “Wound you like me to suck on them too. I think girls are supposed to like that.”

She nodded and he grinned as he simply obliged, causing her to arch her back into him, tightening the hold on his hair. “Ahhh…Ben…”

~

Ben suckled one hard nipple than the other as he fingered the one he wasn’t mouthing for a long time. Eventually, he feathered his hand over her taunt belly, downward as if it had a mind of its own. He suddenly brushed the soft curls at the end of his blind exploration, surprising himself. He moved to look at her; she moaned and opened her eyes.

“Ben?” she murmured and he met her eyes.

Leaning over her, he kissed her lips. After breaking the kiss, his voice was husky as he asked, “I want to look at you and touch you. Here.”

His hand ghosted over the thick black curls to rest between her legs. Her eyes were dark with desire as she nodded her head. Her breathing was coming fast with excitement and a touch of fear of the unknown. He smiled, kissed her neck and then whispered in her ear, “You’ve never made yourself come—orgasm—have you?”

She shook her head negatively, and he pulled away to see her biting on her lower lip, uncertainly. Grinning, he kissed her ear again and said, “I’ve been dreaming about doing this to you for so long, Jys. I’m glad that I’ll be the first to give you pleasure. It thrills me to be able to show you this.”

She turned to look at him and whispered seductively, “Have you ever made yourself come?”

As a soft flush touched his cheeks, he admitted, “Yeah, usally after I’d have a dream about doing this to you. Or when I’d daydream about you.” Then he twisted some to allow him better access between her legs. Before he could touch her again, she unintentionally brushed her hand gently over his aching manhood, causing him to hiss. She pulled away quickly and laid it back on his chest. He looked back at her face and smiled, “If you want, you can touch me. Like you did before. In fact, I want you to.”

She slowly ran her hands down over his chest to finally encircle his member. He sucked in a breath and groaned, closing his eyes as she stroked him from hilt to tip. Oh, sweet Force, how often I’ve wanted her to touch me like this! “Jys…Oh…Jys…”

Fighting back the urge to completely let himself go, he concentrated on her by using the fingers of his right hand to separate her soft curl-covered womanly folds. He took in her beauty for a moment, before sliding his fingers tenderly over the slickness of her womanhood. He turned to watch as Jys arched into him and groaned loudly at the unexpected sensations his fingers caused. He bit his own lip as she tightened her hold on him. He had to force himself to keep up on his ministrations to her to prevent from giving in to the boiling heat in the pit of his stomach. He applied more pressure to his caress over her nub and let the index finger slip inside her tight, inviting opening.

“Oh, Ben…” she breathed and he looked up at her face again. Oh, sweet Force she’s beautiful, he thought. Her eyes were closed and her raven hair was splayed over his single white pillow as she slowly turned her head from side to side, moaning his name. Her hand on his shaft stilled, but he was glad, if she had stroked him for too much longer he would have lost his barely contained control. He felt the slippery silky wetness, and got the sense that Jysella was very ready for him, especially when she bucked her hips toward his exploring hand as he pushed his finger in until he was against her hymen.

As he felt the barrier that marked her innocence, he suddenly was afraid. He knew what the next step was. It was the moment he’d dreamt about since he was thirteen and a half and started to think about girls. But Ben never thought about random girls, he had only ever thought of a single girl. Every dream he ever had was coming true as he was about to make love to her.

Suddenly, a thought came to mind that terrified him. Yes, he wanted her, but he didn’t want to hurt her when he joined with her. He wanted her to enjoy it. He wanted to show her how wonderful it could feel. However he feared he wouldn’t have the control he’d need to bring her to completion. His body ached for need of release; what if he came before she had the chance to—

He never finished the thought as Jys opened her eyes and met his. He felt her reassurance, her unconditional love, and her total acceptance. Her hand that was on his chest moved to lie against his scared cheek, while the other one slid back up his chest. With eyes dark with an unbridled, but innocent, passion, she rasped, “Ben, I want you inside me.”

He didn’t hesitate further. Although their movements were anything but confident, he uneasily positioned himself over her and she, just as ungainly, wrapped her long, slender legs around him. His member brushed her damp curls and he shuddered. Their eyes met, and he took a deep breath as he thrust forward, burying himself in her silkiness to the hilt. He gasped at the explosion of sensation that shot through him as he completed one of man’s most basic rites of passage.

Jysella sucked in a breath and bit down on her lip, but she didn’t call out at the sharp pain of him taking the last of her girlhood innocence. Ben felt her discomfort and began to pull away as he wheezed, “Jys? I—I’m sorry…”

She clung to him as she steadied her breathing and focused on the pain, willing it away. “No,” she breathed, “it will pass.” She then she met his gaze again, her eyes were bright in the dim light, “I—I was as much surprised as hurt. Just stay still for a moment.” As if to reassure him that she was indeed all right, she pulled him in for a kiss that at first held little true passion but, by the end, was full of it.

At first their movements were self-conscious and lacked coordination, Ben was afraid that he’d hurt her and Jys wasn’t sure if she should move with him or not. However, when their unfulfilled need, instinct, and unleashed passion became paramount, their movements became more synchronized, less sporadic, and before long they were racing for a place neither of them ever had been. Ben may have pleasured himself, but he never experienced anything like this. These were the purest, sweetest, most joyous sensations he had ever felt. The bond between them only intensified the emotions and the feelings as they felt everything the other one was.

Jys panted his name over and over as her hands buried into his hair, forming fists and pulling hard. All of it adding to Ben’s pleasure. The burning in his center was a raging fire, and he could feel the turbulent tension coil within her. He moved faster and she matched him, thrust for thrust, climbing to that amazing moment of ultimate release.

She was the first to reach the pinnacle and cross it. The coil within her snapped, completely shattering her, leaving her so surprised that all she could do was lay there clinging to Ben, and let the quaking ecstasy fill her senses as nothing ever had. “Ben…!” she moaned in a long, breathy gasp.

Her sun-bright bliss flooded their bond, and the shear sensations that her orgasm brought to Ben caused the fiery boiling within him to explode in a torrent of unbelievable waves. He threw back his head, groaned, and let the blinding, white-hot rapture completely wash over him before falling onto her, panting.

“Oh,..Jys…I love you…” he rasped.

She stroked his face and hair, breathlessly replying, “I love you and I always will. Oh, Ben, that was so beautiful.”

Ben finally moved from her to lie on his back, pulling her into his arms and kissing her with a passion that took their breaths away. Once the kiss ended, she rested her head on his chest where she could hear his rapidly beating heart. As slumber came to claim them, they held each other and basked in the wonderful tranquility of what they had shared, what no one else could ever take away from them, and what neither of them would have given to any other—their innocence.